questions about love, about us

where am I going if I have nowhere to go?

what if all my paths have been impeded 

by someone I don't know.

Where does my happiness go 

when I wake up alone? 

Am I going to live until I experience love?

So many questions and no one will know,

when will my poor heart ever be loved?

I think and I keep thinking

about things nobody does

And I keep waiting for you to come

it's been days it's been months

but your presence feels so far

so gone.

Is it that I'll never be loved?

Is it a blessing or somehow a curse?

I wonder how many times I've been thinking about us.

Maybe if I count the stars I'll get a portion of your love.

You got me writing and losing my head 

over thoughts of endless and genuine words. 

Words that I hope your mouth will ever pronounce, 

at least once.

even if they're not real,

even if I can't hear them.

It's enough for me to just sit and watch you 

whispering these words to a hopeless person 

who will keep that precious moment in eternity.

words who will live forever in my mind 

and heart beating every second 

of the rest of my existence.

words that if I could take them to death, 

I would, without doubt, 

bury them with my dead body 

until the end of the world. 

-mila

time

life it’s an instant of a moment

that cannot be replaced nor changed by anything.

if it was destined to happen, 

it’ll happen no matter what 

no matter how much you try to avoid it. 

those who get to live 

are experiencing a moment 

that’ll never be the same 

a second, a minute, or an hour later. 

but instead of enjoying 

the moment we’re living right now 

we’re trying to remember 

those moments of happiness 

that’ll never be again in life

 

but in our minds, 

they’ll live forever. 

you might think that time passes very slow 

but when you stop thinking about it, 

it just starts running faster and faster 

until you can’t reach it anymore. 

until you feel tired and can’t run anymore, 

so then you start walking even more slowly than before. 

and then you stop

and time stops. 

who’d think the time was so fast, 

but at the same time so slow. 

now you’ve reached time, 

but at what cost?

maybe you won,

or maybe not. 

it depends on who’s saying it,

because you can’t do anything 

now that you’re gone. 

              –– mila

new year omg!!!

last year was full of some really crazy things and some other not so crazy but hard in some way

but it was really great tho, ive became someone that id never thougth ive ever been and that makes me so happy and proud of myself <3

i feel more confident and free of doing whatever i want and i dont really care anymore about what others might think of me so thats a great point to start

ive made a new friend and ive found a safe space to be who i am without feeling exhausted or tired or sad

im happier than ive ever been, and thats the most important thing <3

with luv, mila