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I'm so tired of being let down by everyone I know. But what makes me sad all the time, is realizing I've never been part of something as everyone else, because, everyone has their place, their friends, their lives. While I'm here, writing about me, craving all of that.

I've never felt part of something, and the times I thought I had that it was just bullshit, nothing was real. Why? why can't I have all that? What's wrong with me? that nobody ever worries and loves me the way I've always loved everyone. It's so sad to see the "friends" I had living and being so good without me being there when all I want is to be there. 

Why does anybody talks ever to me? when I've was always there for them when they needed it. 

I just want somebody that will be there for me no matter what, someone to talk to and laugh. Someone who cares for me. When will I have that? that's the only thing I'm asking for.

crappy day

This should be a day where I'm happy, not worrying about stupid things, but somehow I managed to feel like crap today. And not only today, most of my days I feel so bad and all I want is a hug and somebody to tell me everything is going to be okay. 

The last thing I need is people judging me because of what time do I wake up or not, just because all they can do is talk shit about everyone but themselves. I hate that. 

Seriously, I just want to disappear and not know about anyone but myself and my happiness.

ALSO I'm so pissed of with people and their opinions of whoever sexuality, I mean WHY? why do they feel with the right of talking about other people's feelings and identity. They better stop doing that and look in a mirror just to see how stupid they look talking about other people's lives.

PLEASE just SHUT UP, nobody wants to hear your negativity about everything. I just don't wake up every day with the need of judging someone that I don't even know JUST because of someone they love. Why can't you understand that?

If your opinion is something good and something that won't hurt anyone's feelings, well say it. But if all you want to do is talk shit about them, just shut up.

The things that you say not only will be hurtful to that person, but you could also even be hurting anyone else that's hearing you without you knowing.

Somebody could even consider death just of what you're saying and you don't even care.

Anyone cares about no one but themselves and whatever other people do just to hurt themselves because what you're just saying is meaningless to you.

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by Maiko Kobayashi

I just want to get to the time that I feel completely safe, completely free to be who I am without being judged by the people I love and care.

My biggest fear is to lose everything that is important to me because of something I just can't change, because of who I am.

but then sometimes I just wish to escape and go where no one knows me and start as a new person, as myself.

ps. i love this video